Damned If You Do

An interesting title for a blog, but fitting none the less. This is actually the title from an episode of House I watched last night. I do enjoy House very much and am surprised when I actually get something spiritual out of it. Call me crazy, but God reaches you in the most mysterious ways, of this I am sure.

This week as been a crazy, stressful and emotional week. Last night I was busy sewing pants for my boss for our Christmas party tomorrow night and I was very frustrated, because it was taking a while and I kept getting interrupted and all I wanted to do was sleep because work was so busy that day. I turned House on in the background for noise and was in and out of the episode for most of it. It made me semi angry because this episode focused on a Nun and House's character is very much "against God" which I don't get but whatever...

Anyway, there is one scene in the episode that truly touched me and brought me to tears. Dr. Chase is having a conversation with Sister Augustine while she thinks she is dying and he shares is favorite Bible verse and while it is "dumb-a-fied" For TV audiences, I had to find it for myself and just had to share.

Peter 1:6-9 "In this you rejoice, although now for a little while you may have to suffer through various trials, so that the genuineness of your faith, more precious than gold that is perishable even though tested by fire, may prove to be for praise, glory and honor at the Revelation of Jesus Christ. Although you have not seen him, you love him, even though you do not see him now yet believe in him, you rejoice with an indescribable and glorious joy, as you attain the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls."

It amazes me how God always finds a way to "wake me up" and see that He is here and all around me. These stresses and trials are all trivial and they test my faith and I will make God proud for Mother Theresa says "God will never give me anything I cannot handle, I just wish He didn't trust me so much."

"If God will bring you to it, God will bring you through it."

Another quote from the episode is where Dr. House is talking to Sister Augustine about how he doesn't believe in God and Sister Augustine says "in order for you to hate Him, you must believe He's there." so true, how could you "hate" an thing that "isn't there"? What a great thing to tell those who claim there is "No God" they have some waking up to do... that's for sure

Just something to think about and a wonderful way to end the work week for me! I'm off for a 4 day weekend now! Hope you all enjoy yours!

Oh and if you want to watch the episode, the title of it is my blog's title for today, it's Season 1 Episode 5, there Christmas episode!

God bless!

Kelly

Soo....

I have not been myself at all recently. Not that I haven't been trying... but none the less, depressing things have been following me and while I am deep in faith, I can't help but be sad. Thursday night I was out at JoAnn Fabrics buying fabric (of course) to make scrub tops, when my phone began ringing off the hook. One of my classmate's son's killed himself Wednesday night. He was only 14. It was a devestating blow, one I never saw coming and wish with all my heart could have been prevented. Tomorrow night is his memorial service. It is going to be the saddest thing I've ever been too in my entire life and I don't know if I am honestly fully ready to go through it, my family deaths are too recent in my mind. However I see the need to be there for my fellow classmate and friend far more than my need to hide away. The support I received while mourning my loved ones helped me in the end and I even had time to "prepare" for it. This was a sudden and even more devestating tradgy (sp?) and I will be there for her no matter what. Please pray for her and her family. I can not understand it nor do I think I will ever be able to, but I will support her and her family in any way I can. God bless.

UNeventful evening...

So I've been away from the blogging scene for a little. Sorry, I tend to blog in spurts. Blog when the feeling hits ya, know what I mean? Well since the doctor gave me a note to stay home from work, I find myself being able to BLOG. ooooooooo aaaaahhhhh... oh my I am bored.

So, update on little old me. I've been sick for like 3-4 weeks now and it's annoying. I've been falling asleep behind the wheel and almost hitting embankments, so I have that going for me now... lol. I had to have a bunch of tests and blood work done today. Note to all, if your dehydrated, don't get blood work done, I have a rather large cut from the needle b/c my skin was easy to tear... joy... I am actually hoping something shows up on the blood work though so that I know this isn't all in my head... speaking of which, hurts, so I'm gonna go lay down.

Oh and for the first time I was actually able to watch them take my blood... this medical professional thing must be wearing off on me now lol

OH and another thing, last night our hot water heater started smoking, that's always great sign. so yea... no hot water... that sucks, but it will all turn around and be better.

I got a new phone it's beautiful and named Rucksus so yea :-D

Enjoy this picture of my future husband :-D what a cutie!

Negative mood

If find myself in a negative mood and rather angry today. I'm normally in a good mood like all the time but sometimes things just get to me. Today I am fed up, I am sick and tired of being single especially when my jerk of an exboyfriend gets all these other girls and flants them around when he should be unhappy given all the abuse he gave to me... i know that I don't mean that, but come on what the hell? I mean, I'm a good person right? Where the heck is prince charming??? I'm beginning to think he doesn't exsist. Maybe I should just become a nun and not worry about finding a guy, they are a lot of trouble. But then how would I have the 8 kids I want? Can't do that as a nun, guess I have to find a good guy. Anyone know someone for me?? The one I like, at the rate we are going, will be married by 50. Lord, please help me find the one and if I have found the one, can you open his eyes and heart for me?? Thanks. Amen. Kelly

Answered Prayers

While falling asleep last night I prayed for snow. I love snow and felt the need to pray for snow. I was actually praying for a White Christmas, but when I woke up this morning, WOW what a fast answer :-D. I was woken up by a text message from a good friend that read "bet your loving this" and to myself I thought, what his he talking about?? when I looked out my window and what did I see?!?!?! SNOW!!!! like it was falling just for me! SOoooooooooo amazing! I can't even begin to grasp the way my soul feels when God sends us little reminders of his amazing love for us. And it snowed all day and it's beautiful and I feel so happy and so blessed and so glad that for once I am sitting at home on a friday night enjoying the weather with my family. What an amazing gift. God is so good. (the picture to the left is my next door neighbor's tree, sooooo beautiful, I take a picture of it every year)

Oh and I work with little angels of this I am sure. I was closing today which meant I had to stay till the doctors were done and all the patients were gone, when the remaining five of us came out to clear off our cars, someone we work with did it for us! So sweet. I am so blessed to work in an office that still believes in practicing Random Acts of Kindness. God has blessed me so.

SNOW

I don't know what it's like where you all live, but in good ol' Pa, the word "snow" tends to stir people into quiet a panic and for me I personally don't see why. Let me explain, to me snow is a symbol of purity, peace and a warm blanket of love. Think I'm nuts? I'm not done yet. While as a child the word "snow" caused me to pray for snow days, time off of school, and new awesome thing to play with. As an adult I still think of it as a playtoy that comes and then melts away, but now I can see that it means so much more. We live in a very hard, sad and troubled time, there is no denying that, when snow comes and covers the ground, it places a warm white blanket of purity over this hard, cruel world and for a moment causes true peace. Everyone stays in, no hussel and bussel, this cruel word "snow" causes us to pause our lives and for a moment take a chance to catch out breaths, because what can you do when snow covers the road? I am actually praying for a blizzard this year, we could really use the blanket of love and purity over our nation right now, we need those moments to pause and breath and love. We NEED "SNOW". Let's all pray.

I LOVE MY JOB!

I was at work today and while it can be very exhausting and so annoying at times, the pure joy I get out of it lifts my spirits and makes everyday worth getting out of bed. Don't get me wrong, with the freezing cold air all around and winter snow close behind, getting out of bed into my freezing little toyota that rumbles if you hit 50 is not the greatest morning ritual, but when I get to my desk and help those patients and see my coworkers and joke with my doctors, it's so rewarding. God picked a wonderful path for me and I am so glad that I followed is direction, if only he'd lead me down the path to a wonderful man, patientce...